ToeJamGuy

I build a wall to keep you out. A wall that only i can pass. The wall keeps me safe. So noone can see the way i think and see the world. The wall has many layers. People are closer to breaking the final wall, but they cant get past it because i can build it as fast as they can break it down. The wall may never come down, but i dont know that. The wall helps save me from the untruthful people of this world. There are some that will get past the wall. If they do they will have my full trust. The wall keeps me safe.

I hurt in side everyday. I live my life hurting inside. Will it ever go away? Fending off the hurt i can only bide. Hurting inside i wish it would stop. Meaningless promise cant help but dout. Like a breaking bone that just wont pop. I ask to be alone because i dont want to pout. Hurting inside more in my heart. Never able to find the problem that haunts me so. This whole thing is tearing me apart. When will i beable to live my life on the go? Hurting inside i wonder why? Is it my fault that I am so sad? Liveing in this shitty pig stye. I want the love of my mom and dad...

Why does my life seem so empty, without any meaning? I try so hard to stay faithful to God, who brought me healing Every morning I wake up, determined to follow after Him But at the end of the day, I’m so polluted by sin Ashamed I am every day, because I can never do the right thing I am ashamed that because of the effect of Your love my heart doesn’t sing I long to bring my heart back to You ,  Oh Lord I lay myself at the throne before you, oh most Adored Shield me with your love and mercy I need you now in my time of greed Help me to come back to you Lord Protect me with your marvelous sword